Let do this thing....IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII feel like talking about....Love. you know why? becasue i am in love. no really i mean it. it's so freaking cool.

what i mean is that, i feel something so incredibly different from the past the only thing it could be is love. everything about her gives me chills, makes me smile, makes me cry, makes me want to rip my heart out only to please her. to give her everything she could possibly want... the amazing part about that is all she wants is me. thats it. nothing else.

i don't care what people say, i don't care if the forces are against us. all i know is that when she looks at me with her soft blue eyes i can do nothing more then melt. when she comes near me her scent sends my mind reeling.

i don't know what to do. we have been both so hurt in the past, still being hurt now. but the difference is we have each other now. we hold each other up, we make eachother happy. i don't see why anyone would want to pull that from us.

many may see her as quiet and alone, with not much to say. to me she's perfect. with me she laughs and plays and smiles. oh her smile. how wonderful it is. a true one rare but still perfect.

i love her so much. i am incredibly lucky that i didn't pass this up like i was going to. i had no idea that the girl i spent my time rambling on to about gay sex in Narnia would be the woman i would want to spend the rest of my life with.

she understands me like no one else ever could. and in those hard to understand ways we are the same. we both feel the same.

her hands and feet are small. she's short, but she fits so perfectly in my arms. when she hugs me i feel bliss that nothing but her could replicate.

when we are intimate, it feels so much more then just sex. it is greatest deepest connection i have ever felt with anything or one in my life. when she touches me, or even more when i touch her it's as if we are...i don't even think i can explain. the fact that she trusts me that much. enough to allow me to please her in that way, to see her, hold her so intimately.

she is so incredible. i love her with every fiber of my being. i don't know how i came to have her in my life. whatever power brought her to me, thank you. she is my beautiful perfect love.

to my Baby. i love you with everything that is in me. you make me smile you make me proud. when you lie next to me at night i can sleep easy. your touch gives me the chills. every time i look at you i can do nothing but smile. we may have our hard times but you are right. we work it out calmly and we are back to holding and loving each other. i love every single bit of you. please never change. make love to me, be with me forever.

I Love You, BJ. i can say it a thousand times and not worry about saying it to much. you make me so strong baby. thank you.

My Caspian
Fai
Sebastian
Reid
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Iyn


i love you so very much.
My BJ.